This night I find that no words at all may convey This final depth of suffering Of Agony’s blackest haunting place
And I have lain in many a low place in the times before Yet had paused lest to descend so deeply enshadowed as this
Death is beckoning, tempting, depriving me his final kiss
Looking to be as such bliss
Give me this- set me free, my torments dismissed
Yet every time you have come around As I’ve felt your weight begin to press down I’m known to back out Begging for the air to torture my burning lungs again Turning from the little light at tunnel’s end
For fear of the pain
End of the game
Of a judgement afraid
But as it sinks deeper and asserts it’s permanence within As the blade that’s become lodged between my ribs
Another inch…. Another inch…
As I wait for that single punctures pinch
But am only ever left to marvel how heart still persists!
How do you carry on still How can you continue, when I have lost all will?
You leave me no options, no choice
As you continue to scream, long after I have lost my own voice
Heart: Please let me know how to descend Death: At long last, let me go- bring me my end
To take no more
No longer make me endure
I’ve laid out my black sheets and on them I lie here waiting Not to see another morning
But on this night
Come and take me.