2.13


I don’t know what to say

I can’t think straight

When I can’t escape the pain

I medicate in vain

And fall away

to do it all the same 

the very next day

 

I’ve lost my mind

For the thousandth time

Waiting for something

Waiting for nothing

There’s only enough air for now

There’s no later, there’s no tomorrow

There’s only the next hit to delay the sorrow

And its killing me in a way far too slow..
But swear on a dying heart

And skin scarred

I still try too goddamn hard

For nothing to show but being back where I started
Trying to walk straight

But can’t stop the shakes

you can’t sedate the ache

So we medicate in vain

And suffocate

so we can do it all the same

The very next day
It’s blurring emotion

Going in slow motion

It’s become lost and all mixed up in

This sickness

Everything’s become so twisted

And nothing’s right
Missing the will to fight

For the thousandth time

Waiting for something

Waiting for nothing

There’s only enough strength for now

There’s no later, there’s no tomorrow

There’s only the next hit to delay the delusion

And its killing us in a way far too diluted… 
Don’t know how to eat

barely seem to sleep or talk

But just sleepwalk is all I do now

When the flame has gone out 

There’s only enough to get though the day

Overdrawing again each time from empty cisterns and deepened spaces

Always staring back at night

Where nothing feels right
But swear on a dying heart

And skin scarred

We all tried 

We all still try so goddamn hard

For nothing to show but being back where we started.

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